Layout: Sunday, April 22, 2007
Hey… It’s a gloomy day today. Totally compatible with my emotions and the happenings of today. Today, in Physics class at the Science Homeroom, Jess told me that someone jumped down at the block near the basketball court. To be honest, I wasn’t affected by it. After awhile, she said the person died. I then said of course la, jump down still wont die meh. Now, I just cant believe that I said that. Then, during recess, Xinni and I went to see the scene. There was blood on the wall and there was even small pieces of, what said to be the brain, around. Then, I was still not affected but was there discussing with my friends on which floor she jumped down from. It was said that her head and her body was separated as she knocked on the pipe when she landed. It was also said that the body even moved away before it became still. After recess was English when I had to do the composition test which I had missed on Tuesday when I went for Syf. As usual, I did the one word question. Coincidentally, it was Superstition. Now, when I think back, is it alittle too coincident when it was just a few minutes ago that my friends and I were talking about what colour of clothes did the person wore? Nevertheless, I completed the composition alone in the Humanities homeroom as the whole school was called to the hall. After completing, I went over to the hall and we were told to keep silence as the teachers had a meeting. Lessons were cancelled until 1.30. It was back to the form teacher’s homeroom until 1.30. It was only then did I felt really sad and depressed and tired. I don’t know why, but the feeling just came. It didn’t stay for long as I had Xinni to accompany me while Kat had her fall in with her cadets during lunch. Xinni and I talked about other things and ate until it was time for E maths. E maths was boring as the choir members went off for their practice and most of us slept throughout as Mrs Li tried to go through the mock exam paper. When I got home, I just felt really sian, tired, just don’t feel like talking. In shows, they would always say that life is short so we should treasure it. I knew this phrase all along but yet, it didn’t really went into my heart. It was only until today do I know that I really should treasure and cherish today no matter what happened and give thanks to what I have. Sometimes, people are just saying things that they don’t feel. Sometimes, the things that we speak just don’t process with what our heart feels. Sometimes, people should really just sit down and think, just think… Im ashamed of myself today when I said that sentence in the Science homeroom. Guess my heart didn’t process what I thought and said. Life is so fragile. I didn’t realize it, until today. Regrets are things that everybody has. But why? If only we dared to do the things that we want, the things that we believe it’s the best for us. There wont be regrets. People say, a life without regrets is a wasted life. I used to believe in that. Now, I don’t believe in it. Since our lives are so short, why cant we have the courage to just do what we want and just fulfill our wishes and live life to the fullest? [heavy heart…]
her sweet memory was written @ 2:08 PM