Layout: Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Tuesday 1828
*stomach grumbling* Havent ate since morning… Damn hungry… Made me couldn’t concentrate on the E maths Mock Exam! Of course there were other distractions la… Today started out not bad la… Was quite high and all… Only when during Physics then feel tired le. Stupid Farid didn’t come for our lesson again. Sick la him. Everytime like that de. No wonder my Physics is so perfect. And no wonder I love Physics so much. Wa… Then, after physics, my mood jiu… not so good le… After school he was suppose to send me home de… But, something came up and so I went back on my own… Thought a lot… Especially the entries I saw on his handphone… It’s like… Maybe he asked to stead too early… I mean… I don’t think I can forget someone I really like in just less than 2-3 months la… Kinda impossible and I know how much he loved his ex… Then, you know me, thought a lot… He did comforted me la… But… Haiz… I don’t know la… Don’t really want to talk about it again… It’s like all this while, actually I did think that perhaps he still likes her la… Just that I kept it at the back of my heart ba… But now, everything’s flowing out le… And I cant control my mind from thinking… Cant control myself from feeling scared and worried… Cant control myself from wanting to cry… Didn’t knew that I like him that much le… From his entries, actually saw myself in him… Like how his ex could control his every mood and emotion… He can do that to me la… And its like then I knew that perhaps… we stead too early… Perhaps… he still likes her. (Yes, I know he said that he doesn’t but… I cant help but think this way ma!!!!!!) Maybe… it was just convenience for him to like me, so that he wont feel lonely, since I was already there liking him? I don’t know… I really don’t know… Im just really confused now… I gtg k… Bye… [Trying to concentrate on Bio but nothing seems to get in…]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:02 PM