Layout: Monday, September 24, 2007
Monday1450
Today is the day we break up… It has only been 1 month and 15 days and a lot of posts about him… Ya, I knew this was coming, sooner or later… I knew his heart wasn’t with me but yet he would always assure me and it seems that I also did quite a lot of living denial… He still hasn’t given up on his ex. This doubt has always been on my mind but I would push it far far back and not allow it to surface. Until today… I knew she has always hold an important position in his heart. In the morning I was already disappointed with him le. Had a black face until after recess. He asked yesterday how did I recover from my past break ups. I told him and he asked how long did I take to recover and will it affect me a lot. I told him 2-3 months and it would but I would keep myself busy and I asked what about him. He said that his ex’s request to break up with him affected him a lot, even now. I was like… WHAT? I thought he had already given up on her. Then I asked if he still feels sad and heartbroken for his ex. He said yes. I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t reply. Today, after school, he asked why didn’t I reply his sms yesterday… I told him that I didn’t know what to say because I thought that he had already given up on her. He told me that when he looks at his ex (they’re still good friends), he still has feelings for her… Then I asked him… Then what does he want me to do… Wait for him to get over her and want me to give him up… He says he don’t know and ask me, instead, what he should do… I told him that I had a feeling that he couldn’t let her go… He agreed. So I initiated the break. I guess he wanted to break too ba, just that he didn’t dared to say it. I don’t know… This time, he didn’t even liu zhu wo… When I think back at the time when this happened, I remembered how he assured me and all… But, I guess… This time it wouldn’t happen… That’s it… I don’t know what to say… Im not going to blog until after the Os. Bye guys… [Crying…]
her sweet memory was written @ 5:09 PM