Layout: Thursday, December 20, 2007
Thursday
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Lalala.... Such a nice day to have a off day! Lolz. Was eating steamboat with my family and Dad was saying how expensive the food we're eating are. Hate it whenever he lists out the cost of the food that we're eating. Makes me think how many hours i have to work to earn that and in a matter of minutes, the food will be in my stomach....... -_- Anyway, after brunch, Xinrui called. Actually i called her back yesterday when she called when i was working. But she went to work when i just finished mine. Lolz. Such a coincidence. Thought she wanted to say how touched she was after reading my last entry. Lolz. Just now, she called and we talked.... She and fatty... broke up le... Today's supposed to be their 7 month together...... And yet, yesterday, they broke up le... I still remember last week when i went to find her at AMK hub, she was still saying that she's going to take leave today and go out with him 'cause it's been a long time since they went out... Haiz...... Really cant help but feel sad and heartbroken for her. i never thought i'll feel this way for a friend... i mean i've read it in books la... But feeling it is a different thing.. It's like hurting her is like hurting me. Damn, Feel like bashing that fellow up. Jerk!!!!!! She treated you so well, taking initiative everytime la!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bastard! K, enough talking about that whatever person. He's not worth so many lines or even words. Mei.. I understand what and how you're feeling k.. I understand that every corner of your house has memories of him and you. I've been through that before... But it's like that de... When a relationship ends, you're bound to get this feeling. It will help you to grow up and mature. What doesnt kills you will make you stronger k. People often say, time heals all wounds. But eversince what happened to me, i beg to differ. It may be true but... i think it'll be a long long long long long time ba... Think it's the same with you ba... But life needs to go on k, Im not asking you to immediately forget him or not think of him. I know it's impossible for now but go on with your life, no point sitting at the same spot day after day. As what Pengrui said to me once: "wanna totally forget him is impossible, but just leave him in your memory. ren shi hen miao xiao de, shi jie bu hui yin wei ni er ting zhi zhuan dong, yong gan mian dui ni de ren sheng!" I think it's really true... Just take this time to think things through as what Im doing now. I know it feels like you cant even function(or that was what i thought la...) but it's better to get on with life. I know it really hurts but you have to deal with it. Nobody can do it for you. Even if they want to. Since you decided to get into a relationship with him or even fall for him in the first place, you should know the consequences de mah... Haiz...No matter what happens i'll be there for you whenever you need me k... Just give me a call. If Im working, I'll call you back whenever i have the chance k.
Recently so many heartbreaks are around me... I still remember at the beginning of the year, there were so many couples and you can really feel the love.. But now, i can only feel the tears. Even the weather seems to feel it......Makes me doubtful of love between a couple... Does it really exist? It seems so fragile but yet everyone everyone seems to want it despite the hurt it causes... Why? This thing about love seems so fake......People are always saying: I love you forever and all that crap but what exactly is forever?Does this kind of forever love exist? Doubt it. K la, gtg le! My friend lend me the DVD of Witch You Hee. Lolz.. Will write another day! [Heartpain....]
her sweet memory was written @ 12:16 PM