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Thursday, January 31, 2008
31 January 2008
Thursday
1139
Morning... Not a very good morning for me... Would rather go back to work.. Had to clean up my study room just now.. So damn dusty.. Made me sneeze like shit sia..Then, ,my aunt send a long sms and how i should save my money and not spend it on arcades.. And that I should not mix around Zhao Ming and Vincent and that I should work seriously.. I really had nothing to say after that sia.. I just replied okay.. Doesnt she know.. Im just a teenager!!! I seldom play arcade unless Im sad or that I feel like quitting my job?! Its like I've always liked playing games la.. And that does she know that the guys are the ones helping me with all the extra things I have to do?! All the aunties just make me help them do their things when I havent even finish my own things la.. And eventually, make me go home later.. I know Im thinking so selfish-ly la..But!! Its true la.. the guys are the ones that helped me la.. Like yesterday, Zhao Ming and Gary came and helped me load all of the dried goods and helped me clear them out la.. Without them I think lunch would be impossible le... And it's not like I hang out with Zhao Ming.. I mean Airene(my supervisor) would always ask Zhao Ming help me do things de mah.. Does my aunt know that everyday Im eating lunch alone?! And that there were times when I feel so damn deperessed and that there wasnt anyone there for me to confide in? Of course I had to turn to playing games la! And does she know that sometimes I need my own space so badly that I hide myself in the toilet after eating my lunch? It's like it's only in the toilet do I find my own space...
I know that she means well and there are probably rumours saying what I and them so close, wa, I must be so damn freaking loose la.. Blah Blah Blah.. Actually I dont really care ba, let them say what they want, I dont give a damn la.. But I know my aunt wants the best for me and she's right la.. I'll try and control my urge for arcade la.. Regarding Vincent and Zhao Ming.. Vincent Im not that close with him la.. Zhao Ming. K la, I'll try and do things all by myself.. Hopefully I'll break my back in the process. I'll stop here for today.. Bye guys[Depressed]
her sweet memory was written @ 11:39 AM
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
30 January 2008
Wednesday
2005
Yeah!!!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow's my off day!! YES!!! Lolz.. Though Im really enjoying my work these days la. But come on la! Im still human k.. Need my rest de... Anyway, today was really an enjoyable day. LOL.. Cant stop smiling.. Today, The aunties all never come and bother me.. Hehe.. That's one thing damn happy about.. Then, when the dried goods came, Zhao Ming and Gary came and helped me!! So thankful got them sia.. 2 trolleys full lei! Can die sia! But they helped me and I managed to eat my lunch at about 1447.. Lolz. Then after lunch went to help them clear the store for awhile before I head home..
Today, I finally told Gary all my feelings about him le.. All those that I dont like and what not.. Lolz.. Finally got it out le.. And, shockingly, he understood.. Lolz... Yeah.. Well, there are quite alot of info that I cant post it on my blog la.. So if you want to know more, please contact me at....XXXXXXXX. LOL. Hehe... Today really super happy sia.. Cant stop smiling..!!! My gor is also living in bliss sia..Lucky fellow!!!!!!! Lolz.. K la, wil stop here for today!! Hehehehehe!!!! [Laughing madly..LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! lalalalalala~~~~~~~~]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:04 PM
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
29 January 2008
Tuesday
2033
It's almost the end of the month!! Today, the management gave out ang baos.. $20 voucher.. Not much... But enough la.. Anyway, it's not as if I'll use the voucher la.. Gave it to my mom.. It's night time again.. And damn am I getting sentimental... Dolly and melissa both said I've changed le.. Both said that I've mature alot.. And well.. I guess.. I did ba.. Maybe it's the long bus rides home.. Made me think alot.. Dolly said that I've become more quiet.. And more sentimental... I guess.. She's right ba... Nowadays.. Some things that Im feeling, I dont want to talk about it or say about it.. Just keep it in my thoughts hoping that it'll go away ba... Damn.. Feeling giddy.. Again.....
Today really nothing to blog about la.. Zhao Ming and Gary both didnt come for work.. It's their off day today.. Leave me and lao pa alone.. So sian... Then.. Gary asked me to go on a date with him.... I said that I'll think about it.. Then last night... He asked what situation we were in... But..heng heng... I switched off my handphone le.. Only saw it this morning.. I didnt know what to reply.. So easiest way out was not to reply.. Hehe.. But he asked why didnt I reply him.. I pretended that I didnt get to read his message and deleted it already and asked what did he asked.. Lolz. Lame excuse la.. But he didnt reply after that.. Lolz.. Actually I myself doesnt even know..... Need to think about it ba..... Or maybe it's better if I should just leave it as it is... Dont wanna think about it la... Cant seem to get a solution.. K la, I'll write again another day! Bye guys! [Thinking... kinda depressed...]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:30 PM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
27 January 2008
Sunday
2024
Back to work again today.. Super sian.. Then this morning.. Giddy sia.. Couldnt walk in a straight line but still insisted on going to work... Lolz.. Yeah, I know it's dumb.. But.. I don know.. Nowadays.. Im not really a fan of staying at home anymore... I just want to go out.. Sick of home ba.. Hehe.. Anyway, I have posted my decision on my JAE le.. Let's hope I can get into my desired course ba.. Haiz.. Today was quite sian.. Nothing much to blog about la.. Just that I missed my clique ba.. Missed someone who would always be there to listen to my problems.. Missed school... At work.. it's like.. you're all alone la.. Kinda lonely.. But i guess that's for me to get used to it ba.. Even though I have Uncle Tan, Zhao Ming and Gary and a bunch of Aunties, it's not the same ba.. Dont know if you understand my meaning la.. By the way, the cashier guy came today.. Lolz..Hehe.. So long never see him le.. Kinda missed teasing him..Lolz. I MISS MY CLIQUE!!!!!! Let's go out lei!! Misses sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! K la, Stop here for today le.. Bye guys! [missing.....somebody?]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:24 PM
Saturday, January 26, 2008
26 January 2008
Saturday
1049
Morning! Finally my off day! Today is also the day for me to decide on where am I going to go le... Still very not sure about it.. So many choices to choose.. And boy am I scared that I make the wrong choice...So far.. Decided on Early childhood Education at Ngee Ann Poly... But..for my 2nd choice Im not sure le... Maybe accountancy?Lolz.. I really don know.. Still lost.. Im planning on submitting today as Im working on Monday and tomorrow.. So hopefully I can make the right choice. K la, Just a short one today. Bye guys! [Lost in my thoughts]
her sweet memory was written @ 10:48 AM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
24 January 2008
Thursday
2051
The big day has arrived and the moment has passed.... 4E3 '07 has finally graduated le... Finally got my results today at about 1430++? Was super worried 'cause I heard only 70% passed English.. Was again super worried when they announced that our cohort did worse than last year by alot.. Somemore have to queue up to get out results la! Index number somemore!!! But lucky it was quite fast la.. When it was my turn, I was signing that Chek was like.. Hmm.. You did quite well. I replied 'cher! Dont tell me!! Then she just continued as if she didnt hear me.. You got 4As.. I was like SHH!!! Then when I opened up my letter that stated my L1R5 and L1R4, was super happy.. Lolz.. So the saying is true.. Hard work = good results... Was glad that I didnt give up halfway.. At last, my hard work has finally paid off.. Months and months of tuition.. My l1r5 is 14 while my L1R4 is 11.. So happy!!!! Lolz.. Really relieved that I passed.. 'Cause I actually told my mum that if I fail I wont come home le.. Dont know how to face my parents.. And then if I fail.. People at work will ask how's my results and what am I going to tell them?!But anyway, I passed!!!
My friends did not bad too!!! Good for you guys!!! Then today while waiting for the long talk by the principal to be over, Melissa said that I've changed.. Dolly said the same thing the other day.. Dont know what changed la.. But I guess its for the better?Lolz..
Today after taking our results, Kat, Ros and me went to J8 with Ms Chua.. She treated us Cafe Cartel! Lolz.. Peeked at the bill.. Was $102 sia! Thanks Ms Chua for the treat!!!!! We ate soooooooooooooooooooooo much la! Next time dont say Im hungry already la!! Ms Chua kept loading our plates with food la!!! Until me and Kat had to shift to a nearby table to hide..LOL.. Dolly should have come along with us and help us clear our left overs.. Lolz..
After today, we wont be meeting each other so often le.. Friends, must take care of yourself and not forget the times which we have spent together.. I'll definitely miss you guys, really care bear to leave but I have to!!! Lolz.. Things must move on ba.. No matter what results you get, you still have to move on.. Time and tide waits for no man.. There's no point thinking of the past and regretting your actions then.. Think far and look at the future and start working on it!!! Jia You!
Really didnt expect myself to get 14 points.. Now still hesitating where to go.. JC doesnt have combine science right? It's like.. I want to go JC la.. But I dont know if I can cope... Then if I head to Poly.. Im scared that I wont have the determination to do well as I would have the mentality that 3 years is a long time.. Crossroads sia.. I'll have to sign up on Sunday le.. Still thinking... WHERE TO GO!!!!!!!!!
This whole thing feels like a dream sia.. Hope I dont wake up and.. Well.. Today didnt even happened yet.. Lolz.. I gtg guys! Take care and I'll miss you guys!! Call me if anything happens! Bye guys!![Tired.. Thinking away..]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:51 PM
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
23 January 2008
Wednesday
1818
Tomorrow's the big day le.. Another horrible day to get through.. Tomorrow, the HQ people coming down and see my lane.. So shitty.. The woman sure say what thing de la..Everytime she come.. Wa, feel as if I cant breathe sia.. Tomorrow.. lao pa somemore off... Nobody to eat pao with le.. Sian.. Then, today.. Decided that..that thing with Gary? I told him that we should just stay as friends.. Nothing more.. Yup, finally decided 'cause of something he did. He didnt respect me and well.... Bye bye to him!Lolz
Anyway, today went for lunch really late.. At about 1457.. Ya.. But at that time I still didnt feel hungry.. Just wanted to go out for a breather.. But went to the food court and eat la.. Lao pa and Zhao Ming accompanied me.. Lao pa told me alot of facts and advice... Thanks lao pa! I wont forget you when I leave.. He's really the best.. I was kind of depressed while eating and sms-ing.. But they came and its like.. It's better to have someone by your side when you're sad ba... So many people said that I'll do alright for my Os.. But.. It's like.. what if la.. In life..there are so many what ifs.. Hate it..
Tomorrow I only work for half a day.. My aunt asked me to take a full day off.. But I was thinking.. What am I going to do at home sia.. At least at work, Im busy, I wont think so much ba.. So tomorrow I'll be released at about 12.20... Hopefully it wont drag.. Meeting Guoxiong tomorrow then we walk to school.. It'd be the last time for us to walk to school le.. Haiz.. after tomorrow, we'll all go our separate ways le.... Will miss them sia.. I gtg guys.. Bye! [Worried.. Tired]
her sweet memory was written @ 6:18 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
22 January 2008
Tuesday
1818
Happy birthday Amanda! Today was a hectic day, as usual.. Anyway.. Here's what I wrote during my lunch break: 'Still got half an hour to the end of my lunch break... Today, my mind kept thinking back to what happened yesterday.. Then today, nothing much happened.. Just that when we were waiting for the pellet to unload, he tiptoed..(he's standing on my left la.. Then i pushed him.. Lolz.. Then got another time was that he was still on my left and there were 2 guys in front of us... Then he put his hand at his back and wanted to hold my hand.. I didnt let him though.. The feelings I have for him are so different that the feelings I have for my ex.. Yesterday before I met him, I was really worried that we would have nothing to talk about but it turned out that he was quite funny, could make me laugh.. Lolz.. Yesterday I asked him.. The situation we're in now.. Does it mean that we're already together? He replied that he doesnt know.. and that we should wait until we know each other better.. And.. well.. I thought it was kind of weird..' Joyce and Guoxiong... Im sure you all also think the same way as me right..?
Thursday is the release of our results le.. Im really scared of my results.. During that time, I really tried my best la. And at the time, I thought I did okay, not bad even.. But now? Im not so sure anymore.. Sometimes.. whenever I think I did okay, it always turn out the opposite.. So now, I dont dare to think I did okay... Im really worried.. What if I scored 20 points and above? Where will I go? I planned to go to JC, to fulfill my parents' wishes.. I know they didnt say anything.. But.. I guess.. I can feel the pressure on them ba.. All my cousins are quite smart and they go to JCs.. So.. I guess I want them to be proud of me too ba.. At least they can boast saying that their daughter's in a JC.. I dont know.. Haiz.. Let's just hope that i can get 20points and below.. Bye guys! [confused.. Worried..]
her sweet memory was written @ 6:18 PM
Monday, January 21, 2008
21 January 2008
Monday
2115
Today, so many things happened today.. Went out with Gary to watch movie, I am Legend(dumb show, please do not watch money!!!), after work.. Made the wrong decision sia.. Was so tired after work la... Uncle Ong took sick leave... Apparently he's diabetic and his leg got swollen.. So ended up I had to do his lane also.. Then the whole time watching the show wanted to fall asleep... Then after show I went home le while he went to meet his friends.. Just a short one today... I'll write again another day.. Bye guys...
her sweet memory was written @ 9:15 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
19 January 2008
Saturday
2047
*Yawn.. It's finally my off day tomorrow le... So many things happened today... Last night, Gary suddenly asked me if I liked him.. Didnt know what to say sia... I replied ya, as a friend la.. Then it's like he didnt received it ba.. So i asked if he like me.. By then he replied, i already fell asleep le.. Then this morning woke up, saw his sms.. There were 2.. The first one was that he liked me and he asked if i liked him too.. Second one was to ask me to wake him up this morning.. My dad was going to fetch me to work la.. So i quickly got ready and went to my study room and quietly made the call to Gary.. He didnt seem like he just woke up.. Then, he said that i still hasnt replied his sms.. I said.. Ya, will reply later.. Didnt reply later la.. I really dont know what to say lor.. This morning when i saw him, he treated me differently ba.. As in.. He'll look at me and smile le.. Then, the whole morning, we were sms-ing each other.. Lolz.. Weird huh..
Then, at about 1300 something, i went to the store and check if my 73 stock came le.. Zhao Ming, Gary and another guy, Zheng De were all there and the pellet was unloading la.. So we stood around waiting and at the same time talking.. At first I was standing near the door, Zhao Ming on my right, Zheng De in front of him, Gary in the middle of bother of them and he was facing me.. Then it's like.. we were still sms-ing each other even though we were facing each other la... Lolz.. Then, we shift places..Lolz.. 3 of us were sitting down, waiting for the G.L.S to go into the backyard.. So we sat around talking.. Lol.. Then, when the G.L.S wanted to come into the store, we quickly found another place to stand.. Zhao Ming, Gary and me stood on one side, in that order while Zheng De stood on the opposite side.. Then, between me and him was a few boxes stacked up high so i put my hand on the box and support my head with my fist la, leaning towards him, waiting for the pellet to unload.. Then, at first he didnt do anything la, his hand was also on the boxes la.. Then, he put both hands on the box and leaned towards me also, not causing anyone to notice la.. But I did so I went over to the opposite and stood facing him.. When the pellet finally unloaded, we were both still standing facing each other.. Zhao Ming was pulling the pellet to the right position while Zheng De was trying to help him.. Then, I was stil waiting.. Then, Gary kept looking over at my side..... Couldnt stand it la.. He looked damn long la, so i went over and hit him.. Lolz.. Then went to take my stock. He helped me.... Then, after that, Zhao Ming and me wanted to play Silent Hill and House of the Dead 4 de, we asked Gary to go along with us.. I had to do some labels at the last minute and i asked them to wait for me de.. But Gary just disappeared.... So he didnt went with us...
He asked me to go watch movie with him...... Should be going with him sometime next week ba... Im still not sure what my answer to him should be.... Still really confused... His longest relationship was one year+... Actually... I still dont really know him.. I really cant say whether I'll like him not.. I told him that also... Then, he say we can slowly know each other de ah..
But I was thinking.. Im not going to work at that place for a long time la.. I'll be going back to study soon le.. He's going to Poly too.. And then he'll be going to NS le.. He stays in Tampines while I stay at Hougang.. His parents are both working and they dont really care about him.. Mine care too much.. Then, I dont know if he'll understand my situation la.. I doubt anyone would.. So dont understand what guys are thinking... HELP!! Im really confused...!!!! Bye guys, will write again another day.. [Feel like crying..]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:46 PM
Friday, January 18, 2008
18 January 2008
Friday
1801
It's friday but, so what.. Lolz.. It doesnt make any difference to me anyway, it's not even my off day... K la.. Today was okay.. I typed this, this morning: '18 Jan '08 Fri. 7.43. Waiting for Gary at Mac now.. Feeling really confused.. I know my feelings for him are just infactuation but why am I still feeling this way.. Yes, Im still missing that someone, I still havent let him go.. Feel as if Im betraying him when I shouldnt feel this way.. Hate this feeling of infactuation sia.. Im so confused.. Someone help me!' K, now you guys know how confused I feel.. He asked me to give him a morning call today and I did.. He still woke up late and yeah, he was late for work.. Made me late also.. Damn.. Anyway, from then on, we were like per normal.. Didint talk much, didnt even look at each other or even smile.. Yup.. Weird huh...
Then, was getting really tired le, it was almost 1430 le.. Went to the office to print something, passed by him and his 2 friends.. It seemed like he asked his friends to come down and check me out.. Im not sure about that la.. But.. It just seems so.. When i walked past him, he actually smiled with a weird expression.. Then he mumbled something to his friends..... Then, from then on, i hid at the back store.. Lolz.. When i went out, safe, they were gone.. Lucky.. Then went for lunch.. Found out that he's shorter than me..(cannot accept ah!!!) During lunch, he send me a sms.. Asking me whether want to watch movie later after work.. And telling me not to tell anyone about it.. So weird right? Then, i sms-ed Joyce and Guoxiong about it.. Their answers were opposite of each other.... Lolz.. One asked me to go for it, the other asked me not to.. Actually what Guoxiong said was true.. Dont know if he got motive not.. Besides, we dont really have anything to talk about.... Haiz.. Bluffed him saying that Im going out with my mom later.. Then he asked tomorrow can? He seems eager to watch movie with me ba.... So qi guai!!!!!!!!!!!! But i said that my dad's going to fetch me home tomorrow.. Maybe next week...
I dont know.. It doesnt feel right going out alone with him to watch movie.. Watch movie.. I didnt even watch movie with my ex before.. And now, Im actually thinking of going to watch movie with a guy that Im not even really close to.. So weird.... Really dont know what's his motive..........Anyone can give me advice? Really confused here!!! HELP!!!! Bye guys, I'll write again tomorrow..[Really confused..]
by the way, his nickname on msn is: 'so confused'
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
her sweet memory was written @ 5:55 PM
Thursday, January 17, 2008
17 January 2008
Thursday
2041
K, today's one of those days that i feel like i really hate my job and i want to quit.. Lolz.. In the morning was okay but got crappy as time passes.. Ate luch at about 1430 lor.. Another late lunching day... Not really complaining about the late lunching la, anyway wasnt even hungry anyway, just wanted to get away from that sickening work place.. Then when i came back, felt like crying sia..Lolz, must be the moodswing.. But, mine ending le mah! Why still like that de.. Today nothing happened between me and Gary, it was like normal days? The days before he asked for my number? Yeah.. Seems abit weird though.. Dont know if i blogged it here.. He asked me to wait for him in the morning then i agreed lor, said meet him at Mac.. He was late today so i went to work first.. Then, it was like normal ba.. Then we also didnt sms each other today.. Hmm.. So maybe what my gor guessed was wrong? Muhahaha!! And, he doesnt know how to pronounce my name.. So diao.. He called me xiao mei la! Called him Uncle sia! Just 2 years older than me still call me xiao mei! K la, short one today, bye guys! [Fiddling with my ipod...]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:40 PM
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
16 January 2008
Wednesday
2005
Whoa!! Time really flies.. It's already mid January le, still remember just a few days ago we were still wishing each other happy new year..Lolz.. Oh maybe it was a few weeks le. LOL! February is coming le.. O Level results will be out soon le. Really scared... Heard it's the 20 something of Jan.. SCARED!!! What if I fail Eng or Combine Humanities??!!! Can die la! How am i going to face the people at my work place, my family and friends?! Haiz.. Really worried sia.. Hope my hard work will pay off. Anyway, today was the last day for one of the store keeper.. Sani.. Lolz.. Sounds like Sunny! He's really nice and funny de la.. He got transferred to White Sands.. Will miss him sia.. He's always helping me de.. Anyway, remember Gary? Yeah.. we sms-ed again today.. Yesterday he was asking me where i live and all.. Then, what time i reach Tampines.. Then i asked him why he asked.. He said then we can go work together.. Then i was feeling weird la. How come he want to go work together.. I mean we dont even take the same bus la.. Then i wanted to sleep le mah.. So i told him that we continue today.. Today was his off day.. So he sms-ed me at about 1500? He asked if i was still working, which i was still la.. To cut the long story short, he's learning motorbike la.. Then he asked me if i got anyone that i like.. I told him dont have and asked why, he wanted to jio me is it.. Then he denied.... Just feel that he likes me la!! Hate it sia... As in the feeling that i think that people like me.. So wu liao la! Must kick this stupid habit sia! Anyway, then, i asked Gor what he thinks about that la, i told him the whole story, 4 pages long of sms k!! Then he says that the one about going to work together he thinks that Gary likes me la.. But on the whole still not sure... Then, when i told Gor what Gary's answer was when i asked him if he has anyone he likes(his answer was no), Gor said of course he said no la! Then i was like.. huh.. Why lei? Then Gor say even if he was Gary, he would also say so.. Gor said that he wont let the girl know that he likes her so soon when he doesnt even know her well.. Also true la hor.. Can never figure out how guys' mind work sia.. Or maybe Im too dumb? Lolz. Anyway, thats all la.. Tomorrow seeing him at work.. Kinda dont know how to face him sia.. It's like the situation we're in now.. Abit weird le la... You get what i mean? Hmmmm.......... Anyway, dont want to think about this le! Later tonight cannot sleep.. Lolz.. K la, will stop here for today, update another day!! Bye guys! [itching for arcade!!!]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:04 PM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
15 January 2008
Tuesday
2024
*Yawn* Hey guys... Tired.. Paiseh.. These two days Zhao Ming didnt come to work, apparently he's sick.. Must be keep helping me until sick.. Lolz.. Anyway, these 2 days been really busy, so many new year goods come le.. But lucky got the guys to help.. They're part time de.. One of them is sort of attached to Zhao Ming and since Zhao Ming hang out with me de, i also got to know him too. He's Gary, 19 this year, just came out from ITE de.. Then today, before he went back, he was looking for me.. He wanted my number.. It's nothing okay!! Then gave him la.. Then went to makan at about 1430.. That's the best time sia.. Food court nobody de.. Then somemore one hour later, come back just touch up alittle den can go off le.. Lolz.. Ate chicken pie for lunch.. These days, it seems that i have lost interest in food le.. Last time was to survive to eat but now it's the other way round le.. It seems like eating is not really that important anymore le.. Dont know why also... Then from lunch time until now was sms-ing Gary.. He reminds me of someone.. Lolz.. Dont think too much k! Reminds me of someone that i said that I wont like him de...Yeah.. Joyce, you should know who la hor.. Lolz.. He's okay la.. But we like got nothing much to talk about.. I think that cashier guy and me got more things to talk about.. Yesterday he hit me la!!!! Stupid... Then my reaction too slow to hit him back.. Damn! Anyway, gtg le.. Really nothing much to blog about.. Blog another day! Bye guys! [loving the rain!!!]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:24 PM
Friday, January 11, 2008
11 January 2008
Friday
2008
Today's my off day...Went out with Joyce to Vivo... Finally watched Alvin and the chipmunks.. They're really super cute la!!! Was laughing through out the show.. Then after that, went back to school, collect money.. Lolz.. .Got the EAGLES award, $150 cheque.. Lolz... Then, was quite fun la, saw Guoxiong and gang, Fion, Sophia they all... Then, left at about 6p.m. Principal really damn lor sor lor.. Talk sooo long..
Then, my gor send me to the bus stop.. Didnt really talk la.. That time, felt sad le.. Dont know why also, mood swing la maybe.. Then, when we reached the bus stop, i asked him why he dont he want to give up on the girl he likes.. It's like, their relationship is like a grey spot that she would never want to touch la.. When he has a stead then she confessed that she liked him de.. Then, later he broke up with his girlfriend and went back to her la.. Now, things are the same as before la.. He asked her the question yesterday and she said dont know.. He say what she meant by dont know... She replied.. dont know, but more to the no side.. WA LAU la!! Just what she want lor..
It's like she's like another girl that my another gor likes la... Sickening.. Both girls that both my gors like are so damn similar.. It's so not fair to them la.. It's not like both my gors will ever cheat on them or what la.. Both of my gors are really hao nan ren and truly faithful guys la! Both my gors somemore broke up with their then girlfriends and went back to them la! But these girls just dont appreciate, it seems that they just want someone close, to be there for them and treat them like the world but they dont ever want to return the love.. It's not like both girls have bad character or what.. They've good character and are great friends with me but i really hate this side of them..
When I told my gor about my feelings on this matter, i really felt like crying and i was really angry about it and i guess.. I scared my gor.. Cause he asked why was i so serious.. LOL.. It's just that I dont want anyone, no matter if they're my friends or what to hurt them la.. As long as i treat you as my godbrother/godsister, i just dont want them to get hurt, i'd rather i get hurt instead of them.. I just want them to be happy la.. But it seems that being my godbrother, you'll never have a happy ending de ba...
I dont know la.. I believe they know what they're doing ba.. Im not going to say anything le, just silently support ba.. K la, super emotional today, must be the bloody egg thingy.. If you know what i mean... Lolz.. Will stop here for today le... Bye guys! [cramp...damn..]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:06 PM
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
9 January 2008
Wednesday
2005
Today was supposed to be an okay la.. It was okay la, until i realise what date it was.. Yup, it's the 9 le.. If you know what it means la.. Anyway, then from then on... Not really shun li le... First, the stock came so damn early lor... I was done at about 1.15p.m. then, went for my lunch break though i already makan la.. Went with Zhao Ming and Gary to Century Square de arcade, wanted to play silent hill de.. But someone was playing...So, we played Time Crisis 4 first, Zhao Ming win me la..Damn..But i survived longer than him! Lolz.. Then, Gary went to play racing la, so we watched for a while before we decided to play House of the Dead 4.. SO FUN!!!!!!! Lolz.. I won him!! Muhahaha! Then after that think Gary went to meet his stead ba then we also left Century square, head over to Tampines Mall de arcade, played Time Crisis 2, still win him! Lolz!!
After that, went back to work le la, there was nothing to do after doing forwarding.. Sort of wandered around, trying to act as though im busy, dont want to be dragged to do what new year items things mah.. Managed to pretend until about 1618 then, slowly walked to Tea room and slowly take out my apron, wash hand, take my bag and slowly walk to the office to clock out.. Then after that, then feel how tired I was.. Usually at this time should feel super happy de.. But it was otherwise... Felt really sad and tired, even the store keeper noticed and he asked if i was okay.. Replied that i was..
Walked really slowly while listening to the songs on my handphone.. Dont know why also, just feel like crying ba... Boarded the bus, sat at back.. Listening to Jay's cai hong, almost cried but held back my tears.. Closed my eyes and slept all the way to the interchange... Woke up, still felt as if there's an empty space in my heart that can never be filled up, no matter how much i try.. Last night, it rained the whole night, seemed to match my feelings today..
Anyway, that was that time la, then after i reached home and watched a few parts of It started with a kiss 2.. Lighten up alot.. Now not so bad le, can handle le.. K la, will stop here for today, if not later someone say my posts all so long de..Lolz.. Bye guys! [having a heavy heart....]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:03 PM
Monday, January 7, 2008
7 January 2008
Monday
2049
Whew! It's Monday already! Yesterday was suppose to watch movie with Nick, Morgan and Joyce de, but due to unforeseen circumstances, didnt go, spent the whole day at home, so relaxing!!!! Lolz.. Spent about 3-4 hours watching It started with a kiss 2.. I know there are only 3 episodes la! Yet i took so long to watch and somemore didnt watch finish! 'cause my dad doesnt allow us(my sis and i la..) to watch videos online.. Say that the computer will spoil faster.... So when Im watching, must keep looking out to see if my dad still watching tv.. If not, hurry up change page..Lolz. So far..It's quite okay, not bad la, quite funny.. lolz. Zhi shu and Xiang qin so pei la!!!!
Today was okay de lor.. until after work, while waiting for my bus, my phone rang and the bus came la.. So, i boarded the bus, while talking to my colleague, holding my EZ link and my phone in one hand then, guess what? I forgot to tap my card.. And somemore i happily go sit down and continue talking.. Then the bus conductor had to come and ask if I tapped my card la! Lolz.. Then i was like...OH YA!!!!! Then i went up and tap.. So paiseh la!!!! Then when reach the interchange le, went to apologise to the bus conductor 'cause he seemed alittle angry when he found out that i didnt tap.. Lolz.. Got my pay slip today also.. Then now still hesitating whether to continue working until Feb 4 then quit 'cause thre's the $200 bonus... But it's like, really tiring la.. When Im working, it's okay la, it's the going home and the going to work part that i really hate.. Everytime board the bus, first thing is to sleep liao..
At work at least i still got my "lao pa" and "shu shu".. Lolz.. Now they also employing more staff le, made another new friend today, Gary.. Yeah, so not so bad.. But the thing is, 2 out of the 3 are part timers lor... Then after they leave, Shu shu and i will go arcade and play Silent hill.. Lolz.. Dman scary la, but super nice to play.. Played the first time wanted to vomit after the game sia! Lolz.
K la, will stop here today!! 2100 le.. Oh ya, by the way, stupid dolly ask me to be her mei just now, just agreed..Lolz.. Can bully her la!!!!!!Muhahahaha!!!! [Thinking..]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:49 PM
Friday, January 4, 2008
4 January 2008
Friday
2054
Finally got my pay today le...More than I expected la but kinda so what... Cant even buy the thing that i really want... Haiz.. My friend was just saying the other day that once i got my PSP, he'll teach me which webbie to go to download games and all.. But now.. Cant... Today was okay la.. As Chinese New Year approaches, things get pretty busy and crazy.. Lolz.. My supervisor was really fierce this morning.. Lolz. Guess she's stressed out ba.. Then actually after work Vincent and Zhao Ming ask me go watch movie with them de, either Alien VS Predator or the National Treasure de.. But was too tired to go out with them.. And besides, on the other hand, you think my Mum allow meh.. Go out with two guys.. She'll think that they like me, will take advantage of me blah blah blah.. That's my mum for you.. Cant even believe that that's good in everyone of us.. But maybe it's me that's too trusting ba.. Tomorrow's Saturday le and i ordered really little stock.. So I should be able to sneak off without working overtime!
By the way, today's my parents' 22nd anniversary! 22 years le.. 2 decades.. Seems like forever though.. It must be really tough to be together, to wei chi a family and yet keep their love strong for each other.. Actually.. For a married couple to last that long.. Will there still be love? Or has it already become a habit? I mean forever doesnt really exist.. You know, i used to think what if my dad has another woman outside and that my parents would divorce, who would i go with.. Lolz.. Kinda dumb la.. But that was in the past la.. It's been raining these 2 days again.. Really miss the rain.. It stopped raining since the new year and well, I missed it if you know the underlying meaning! I doubt anyone knows la.. Lolz.. I know can le..
K la, will stop here for today.. Read in a book today, treat your lover better than your best friend.. It's true that friends would always be by your side.. But.. Isnt your lover your best friend as well on top of the love part? So that person should get a better treatment! True hor.. Was thinking about it when i read it at Times bookshop.. The book title is Rules of Life.. It gives good advice that's one thing for sure! Gtg le! Bye guys! [Tired... but yet contented...]
her sweet memory was written @ 8:54 PM
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
2 January 2008
Wednesday
1826
OMG!!!!!!! It's already Wednesday le! I totally forgot! I thought today was Tuesday la! Until i saw the calendar....So fast la! First day of school for everyone else..LOL! Feels so great la, seeing everyone rushing off to school while we can relax and shop all we want..Lolz.. Even the supermarket's so quiet.. Kinda not use to it, after so many months of children running here there everywhere.. Nothing happened today la.. Just saw the most gory shooting game ever at Century square.. It's really disgusting la!!! Oh ya, on my way home today, got stopped by a surveyor la..Nothing surprising la..But she's really funny sia, gave me alot of tips on the PSP slim.. Her name's Fin, she's a bung la.. Then we talked alot with her colleague.. They're so funny! Why cant the staff in the store be like them sia!! But not of the staff are that bad la.. I have my fun too... Think Im quitting at the end of the month le.. Hmm.. Still considering whether to stay on until 4 Feb. They say new year gt $200 bonus.... So tempting.. K la, will stop here le..Since someone say must be short and sweet.. Lolz.. Bye guys!
her sweet memory was written @ 6:27 PM
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
1 January 2008
Tuesday
2028
Happy New year! This morning was really windy, such a nice day to start the new year!but then it rained in the late afternoon, but it was okay, didnt spoil my day.. It was the sickening guy, Ray, that spoiled me day sia! Dumb guys! Are all teenage guys SO dumb? God.. Please help them sia!He worked the afternoon shift today.. Today was super busy, was suppose to eat sushi with my aunt and her colleagues de... But when i was free, they weren't so i waited la though i was hungry.. Then, when they finally free at about 1300++, my goods came le la! And i didnt want to put it off until later... So i didnt went with them but stayed behind and cleared my goods.. Ate only at about 1400 going to 1500?Yeah..So late for me la! Then at that time Ray was already in le.. Then the cereals came also so i asked him if he was free, ,he could clear those goods since he always helped the cereal person in the morning.. So he went and clear la.. Then when i came back from my lunch, still saw the trolley there, half done.. I wasnt going to help him la...(hated to do the cereals!!!) Then the noodles uncle came and ask whose trolley was that as there were getting more and more people and it was kinda obstructing the path.. I told him it was Ray's la.. Went around looking for him, intending to ask him to hurry up clear finish de.. But he was nowhere to be found la.. Didnt even want to touch the trolley so left it there, went to do my own stuff..Then came out, saw the noodles uncle pushing back the trolley... Guess what happened next?
By then it was about 1600+ so seeing that Ray was nowhere to be found, did forwarding in a hurry.. Then, i saw Ray, with a new trolley with milk.. Great... So smart of you hor!!! Cereal havent do finish do milk..DUMB huh!!! How can like that de! If you dont want to do le just leave it back at the store la! Wa lau, put outside for what! Stupid lei!Dumb.. Then he really slowly put the milk up on the shelf la! Wa lau.. Siao sia.. By the way he do finish hor, 2009 come le lor.. K, enough about that dumb guy le..!!!
Today was quite an okay day la, nothing bad happened...So does that mean that my year would be good as well?Lolz... Let's hope so ba! K la, will stop here for today le! Bye guys! Take care and I'll update again ![Stretching my back]
The past is over and cannot be changed. Today is the future i created yesterday and the future is where we are going to be!
New year resolution: Im not going to take things for granted le, I must learn to be appreciative for everything that i have! Learn to take life as it is and to never give up, no matter how tough the going is, I'll be tougher!
her sweet memory was written @ 8:25 PM
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