Layout: Friday, January 18, 2008
Friday
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It's friday but, so what.. Lolz.. It doesnt make any difference to me anyway, it's not even my off day... K la.. Today was okay.. I typed this, this morning: '18 Jan '08 Fri. 7.43. Waiting for Gary at Mac now.. Feeling really confused.. I know my feelings for him are just infactuation but why am I still feeling this way.. Yes, Im still missing that someone, I still havent let him go.. Feel as if Im betraying him when I shouldnt feel this way.. Hate this feeling of infactuation sia.. Im so confused.. Someone help me!' K, now you guys know how confused I feel.. He asked me to give him a morning call today and I did.. He still woke up late and yeah, he was late for work.. Made me late also.. Damn.. Anyway, from then on, we were like per normal.. Didint talk much, didnt even look at each other or even smile.. Yup.. Weird huh...
Then, was getting really tired le, it was almost 1430 le.. Went to the office to print something, passed by him and his 2 friends.. It seemed like he asked his friends to come down and check me out.. Im not sure about that la.. But.. It just seems so.. When i walked past him, he actually smiled with a weird expression.. Then he mumbled something to his friends..... Then, from then on, i hid at the back store.. Lolz.. When i went out, safe, they were gone.. Lucky.. Then went for lunch.. Found out that he's shorter than me..(cannot accept ah!!!) During lunch, he send me a sms.. Asking me whether want to watch movie later after work.. And telling me not to tell anyone about it.. So weird right? Then, i sms-ed Joyce and Guoxiong about it.. Their answers were opposite of each other.... Lolz.. One asked me to go for it, the other asked me not to.. Actually what Guoxiong said was true.. Dont know if he got motive not.. Besides, we dont really have anything to talk about.... Haiz.. Bluffed him saying that Im going out with my mom later.. Then he asked tomorrow can? He seems eager to watch movie with me ba.... So qi guai!!!!!!!!!!!! But i said that my dad's going to fetch me home tomorrow.. Maybe next week...
I dont know.. It doesnt feel right going out alone with him to watch movie.. Watch movie.. I didnt even watch movie with my ex before.. And now, Im actually thinking of going to watch movie with a guy that Im not even really close to.. So weird.... Really dont know what's his motive..........Anyone can give me advice? Really confused here!!! HELP!!!! Bye guys, I'll write again tomorrow..[Really confused..]
by the way, his nickname on msn is: 'so confused'
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
her sweet memory was written @ 5:55 PM