Layout: Monday, January 12, 2009
The O levels are out today and well, there had been tears, some of joy while some were of sadness.. Dont know why, the results affected us too.. We started calling our friends/relatives who were took the Os last year and suddenly, I started to think about last year, this period of time.. So many things have happened since then and it seems that things have changed for the better and Im loving my Poly friends more and more..After lessons today, went with da jie, ma de, hui er, grace, shannon, guiling to the Wheelock college talk and well.. it made me think hard ba (Now think about it, maybe I should go to that talk sia, burst my wonderful shield that I created for myself!!). Just started to think if I really do want all these.. As in.. is my course really suitable for me? Its like some friends and even my sis and my dad say that it's totally suitable for me since I love kids.. But.. After this one and a half semester, I found out that loving kids and teaching them isnt the same.. I told some of my friends about it but they just dont seem to understand and say what's the different, it entirely the same.. Maybe it's cause they dont go through our course ba.. I dont know...
It's like.. Hmm... In a way Im starting to doubt the course my dad recommended to me.. It's not that it isnt good but.. it's like Im not sure if I even took the right course and yet, he has planned all of the rest of my journey already.. He says that child psychology is the best choice after my diploma but... I know he wants the best for me, so that I can support myself next time and all.. But.. I dont know... Do I really want this? I dont know man...
Im just in a state of confusion and well, I need someone to guide me along, someone who has a focused mind and has been through all these.. Even my sis is in a state of confusion too, when we talked late last night.. It seems that the Yap sisters are totally lost right now, dont ask us anything.........
her sweet memory was written @ 8:38 PM