Layout: Friday, April 3, 2009
I've gone back to school! And school has not even officially started! Im going back for Dip+ which only lasts 6 days every holiday and if I pass all the 3/6(forgot how many modules there were), I can graduate with a Diploma in Business! Today's the 3rd day and I feel like Im going to die already. The first day was really boring and all I could think about was to go home and sleep. Seriously.. Everynight, I feel so so tired, I dont even know what I did to make myself so tired! And those mood swings! Seriously, I dont know what happen lor.. My da yi ma is coming la..Late that is. But still.. It has never happened before and.. Ahhh!! It's killing me!! Just come and get it over with la!! Qi si wo le.. All I want to do now is to sleep, sleep and sleep somemore. I seldom get high. Even if I do, it's only for like.. 5-10s? LOL! Yea.. Then later I get all moody and sian le.. Crap. Even da jie noticed at yesterday's lunch, asked me why I was so quiet..
I think over the holidays, due to me not being to go out so often, I have lost my means of communication. I found out that these days, my online personality is so different from my real self.. As in..when Im online, Im more high.. But reality, I cant get high.. Totally sian.. Nowadays, I dont know what to say to my family also.. Get pissed very easily.. Seem to return back to 2 years ago de September that period..
Then last night, my parents were watching television but I was so tired, all I wanted was to sleep at 9pm.. And since my sis was sick and couldnt take the fan, I was sleeping in the hall and my parents watched until about 10.50pm.. So I covered my head with my pillow and I seriously dont know what happened, I started crying and crying! I dont know why also.. LOL... This is getting so weird la.. I think.. I have D.E.L.L! I even came up with a name for my weirdness while crying last night.. Depressed, Emotional, Lost, Lagging.. Seriously.. these few days I feel that my brain isnt there.. Which is crap..
Kay la, will stop here now~ Will update again another day..
P.S: I want a shoulder to lean on too hyukjae...
her sweet memory was written @ 7:38 AM