Wednesday, November 17, 2010
It's been half a month since I've updated this space already! LOL! Didnt realise time passed by so fast! Compared to how confused I was at that time, Im much more focused now! LOL! Though it's only been 15 days, I've already handed up my very first assignment of the last semester and doing up 2 assignments which are both due on Monday!
This semester's going to be such a killer.. I can just feel it.. Lots of assignments and project works! And the stuff are not that easy anymore. Lectures are boring, nothing seems to get in anymore.. Is it the lecturers' fault or mine? Sometimes I try to understand them.. I mean we're student teachers, they're teachers.. Shouldnt we understand how they feel when we talk to a class who doesnt seem interested? LOL! I really tried.. But I just end up looking spaced!
Anyway, I've decided to apply for Wheelock and see what happens. Im totally fine if I dont end up there as I have like 2 back up plans which I know one of them would definitely be the path for my future! LOL!
her sweet memory was written @ 9:43 PM
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Wheelock College people came to give a talk today. They really.. made me even more kan chiong on what to do after graduation. Of course the program sounds good, everything will be made into a rosy picture before it starts. However, I feel that it's not the stress that Im afraid of. Rather Im more afraid that I'll regret the choice if I choose Wheelock. Is this really something that I want or am I just going along with what my parents think it's the best for me? Then what if I do apply and dont get in? Then where should I go next? Should I start applying to Universities now or when? But what do I really want to become in the future? Is it really to be a teacher? Or is it something else? There's just too many questions and confusion and there's no one who's been there and done that to advice me.
Sometimes I really envy those who are so sure of what they want. Most of my friends are in the course that they want and they didnt regret choosing that course cause it's really what they want and they're ready to struggle it out for their dreams. I really envy those who can so readily tell me what they want to do after their graduation. Really makes me feel, why am I the only one still stuck there, stuck at the bottom while others are so sure already? Why? I wasnt a person of no dreams when I was little.. What happened that made me have no more dreams?
Where can i find someone who offers good advice, assurance, warmth, inspirations, hopes and dreams?
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